Saturday, December 28, 2002
Shit.. so much has happened since my last entry! But you can prolly click Blythe's blog link on the left to find out most of it. I'll tell ya all the stuff that happened while she was doing her stuff and was in the background/waiting for her, etc etc. Oh, and I'll note the christmas gifts.
Gifts: 1 really cool looking gothic-gargoyle-nesly-awesome mobile bookshelf ma-bobber. Yeah, that's the only way to describe it.
3 kickass pairs of pants
2 hooded/pullover sweatshirts (very shiek)
0 pairs of new "kicks" (for the homies out there)
1 sweet-looking watch I'll prolly never wear
1 Vandal Hearts II (Xerlic and Blythe were pretty sly with this gift! very cool, awesome gift)
1 Metal ash-tray kinda looking thing with a lid, to put stuff in I guess.. jewelry perhaps? (none of which I own)
1 Black kitty plush, Trigun-style
1(+47) Uber-smooch(es) from Blythe
3 Triple-pounds (hell-yeah!) from Xerlic, Glenngay, and Gregorius Maximus respectively
500 george washingtons, paper format for easy wallet access
1 new wallet (muchas gracias abuela Delia pero porque no tiene internet access, no va a leer este blog [sucks for her in other words] )
And that's the end of the gifts I guess. Now for everything else.
Mom got mad at me for no reason.
I need a new cell fone.
Waited an hour while Boobula Blythe Rue (BBR) got breast exam/Gynecologist checkup at the OBGYN office.
Got schooled in GGX by Xerlic a bit, had crazy-fun though (strangely)
Considering ways to spend money.
Pondering what BBR has planned for later today (her birthday).
Chatting with Casey in meantime of previous.
Sitting on ass, dunno what else to type, but if i remember or want to add, i'll post again later. Need sleep. niterz!
Grey (4:09 AM)
Wednesday, December 18, 2002
So I woke this morning (afternoon for all your "normal" folk) at 1:27pm or so. I felt like I had a sore throat. This would only seem rational considering Jellybean Yan had a cold all last week and then handed it to Glenn somehow (I don't ask for details, I don't wanna know). Well, I decided that there was only one way to deal with this; take some cough medicine, wait awhile, then rinse and brush my teeth. I assumed this would get rid of the germs or pain and whatnot and I was satisfied with the outcome of my morning routine. BUT, I do have some input on this. Listerine should have a warning label for all those kids who think that rinsing for longer than directed is "cool" or something you can "impress" your friends with. Let me tell you, it's not worth it. Take it from me. I've decided that I'm going to email the people who make Listerine and tell them to add a warning label, written in big bold and red lettering. It will go a little something like this:
Use Listerine as recommended. DO NOT rinse for more or less than 30 seconds. Rinsing longer may cause severe disorientation and loss of immediate memory. Other side effects include: gagging, forgetting where you are and/or your real name, death of trillions of sperm, lockjaw, more gagging, stiffness of neck, corrosion of tooth enamel, and quite possibly even death.
Now I guess all you ladies are probably saying to yourself: death of sperm? well, I guess I'm off the hook this time! Alas, you are wrong. Females should replace that line with the following: loss of ability to have children.
On the bright side, if you're seeking never to have children anyway, then it's not such a big deal. I guess in this case Listerine is like birth control..
But in other news: Got a B in philosophy, was hoping for a B+ but I can deal. Got a C+ in abnormal psych, which was gay, I was .18 points from receiving a B- instead. I know I should've done that extra credit assignment. Bleh. Oh well. So that C+ brought my GPA down a bit thus far. I think I'll have a 2.6 or so this semester, which isn't _so_bad, but I was really siming for a 2.8, which might've been a bit more reasonably obtain if I had gotten a B- in abnormal instead. But, I'll admit, what I receive in the end is the fruit of my labour, a direct outcome of my combined work. I did a lot more work this semester than the previous two, but my classes were also much harder and only two of them use the magic bell curve grading system. I still await my grade in statistics. I'm shooting for a C/C+ and I will be fairly disappointed if I receive a C-. I actually know how to do statistics quite well for having the math skills of a 30 year old woman who never finished high school. I guess I'll have to be more patient next semester and keep up on top of my work a bit more.
It's funny though. I really didn't do much more than school this semester. I never finished Grandia II (although that is self-explanatory 20min into the game). I didn't even have my PS2 hooked up actually. I played PD like 3 times I can recall with Mike18. I didn't code any areas or start a new one until last week. I was fairly inactive on the MUD as a whole. I have loads of course packets and such printed out staring at me daily and I'd say in a given week I studied probably 3-4 hours for each subject. I only partied once right after second exams. I didn't really keep true to GT Chicken Night either due to business (I apologize to the GT Gods for this, I await a request of penance). Heck, I didn't even sleep in more than 2-3 times a month and I was really good about going to lectures.
Jellybean Yan (JY) says it's probably my study habits though, that perhaps I should study in groups (but I hate people..) or I should study in a different manner. I took him up on that at once point and I began to use note cards. This drastically increased the output of studying, but for something like statistics, you can't really write up note cards but for definitions which aren't something we're testing on, you just sort of know them or you're screwed.
Well, I can't complain, no point to it. I'll probably have all my grades this time next week. I'll probably even be a very happy camper if I can pull a B in bio. Here's what I am going to estimate my grades at:
ABNORMAL PSYCH: C+ (got it alreay)
PHI: B (got it already)
COGNITIVE PSYCH: C
Alright, I guess I'll check in next week (suprised you made it this far) and let you know what the results were and maybe even a GPA score.. *blehs*
Grey (3:49 PM)
Friday, December 13, 2002
Ah yes. Finals are coming closer and closer every minute that passes. Suprisingly, I can't wait to get them over with, I'm confident that I will do as well or better on every final that my previous 2 or 3 exams in each respective class. But perhaps I'm overconfident and anxious to just get the hell out of here. Today I did nothing but study and I've wasted the last 4 hours relaxing and doing absolutely nothing but chatting it up with a lizardman.
I feel really good today, I dunno why, but I just do and that's ok, right? I guess I can attribute that to the MUD though. A lot of things are being decided now that have been in limbo for months due to school, but the closing of the semester for us college kids and the upcoming christmas break benefits us all, including Seasons of Almadyn. All my life I've looked for a place to call home and I'd just never found it until September of last year. I was so happy on my old MUD, things were changing, but not for the good, yet strangely, I felt as if my presence there was actually the catalyst for most of the downgrading that was occuring. My removal proved that. I had a big head on my shoulders there. I played for me, and for my friends, but mainly for myself, who else is there to play for? I had lotsa fancy equipment, some was borrowed, but most was my own. It was all earned in some seemingly fair way which was overruled later and some of it was even taken away, but I know I earned my keep. I earned my removal too and it was probably the best things for me at the time what with classes and such. But that never phased me. I think at that point I just stopped being angry with everything else, and just my own personal problems, which I mentally created through contact with a loved one. Come last April though, right around the time of I-Con, I started to lose all sense of anger. I regressed, back into some child-like maturity and it made me smile for the first time in my life. I dunno if I've smiled since then, laffing doesn't count.
But anyhow, I'm devoid of anger these days, or at least I thought I was until yesterday evening. I started to make my class schedule for next semester. Everything was going well, I got into two of the classes I wanted to right away but the last three.. no. I reverted to paging my way thru the class manual for some second and third string classes. Well, I ended up taking something like 6th-string classes, none of which go towards my major, my minor, nor my gen-ed requirements. Well, it's the way life is, I got angry at this university, but only for about 4minutes time, seemingly *very* long when I'm angry. It was all settled by chinese food, good stuff.
But going back to the non-existent topic, I wanna talk about the MUD some more. We're gonna have a lot of features that really stretch our necks out. I read a post on Top Mud Sites today that stated the obvious so clearly to me. When you create a game, adding a lot of new features is very anti-normative. People who play MMORPGs like EverQuest or Asheron's Call play because it's really just a very generic, but highly-polished game. People like hack'n slash and when you take that away from them, the idea of variety floods them almost to an overwhelming extent. Well, in my life, I've never tried to be normal, I don't even appreciate society, religion, politics, economics, or intellectualism. To me, it's all bullshit, but it makes the world go 'round. I'm not involved, I couldn't care less about that stuff. So Seasons is going to be mostly-original, for being 100% original is impossible, nothing's original these days. The dawn of originality is done as far as MUDs are concerned. I'm doing my best though in coming up with new ideas to set us apart. At one point last semester I had 50 characters each on a different MUD and was asking polling players on what they liked best about this MUD. On the whole, it was a good idea, but generally confusing. Each MUD has different features, one of them being player killing (pk'ing) and some MUDs are have it restricted and others do not. Most of the responses I got were in the form of: Player killing rocks or I wish it wasn't restricted; things like that.
All in all, Seasons of Almadyn is going to be the most original MUD around as far as I'm concerned. I ain't trying to advertise or anything, but you've read this far so I might as well finish my thoughts and plugs. It's my home, and if MUDding interests you, or even if it doesn't, you should take some free time of yours and just log in and meet the crew. It's the perfect place to make friends. It's like a live forum with optional role-playing and battle. What more could you ask for in a game? And it's free.. simply stunning to me. *sigh* I wish I could stop time and simply make the MUD "go". I wish I could think it and it'd be done just the way all the admin and hiwiz would compromise it to be. Then, it'd be perfect, and bug free. I love my home, Seasons is my home, it will always be 'til the day I die.
Maybe I'll see you there someday.. Peace be with you.
Grey (3:30 AM)
Sunday, December 08, 2002
*yawn* Wow, it's Sunday already.. jeebus price! Where did the weekend go.. Oh yeah, I remember.. It all started on Friday..
It had been a snowy day on thursday, I woke up around noon or so. I had missed my only class today.. dammit, I really should've gone, but no use crying over it now. So I hit the books for about 2 hours. Glenn was not around, no idea where he had been. As I daydreamed a in front of that psych text, the cell rang. Lo and behold, it was Glenn-san. I got dressed and met him, Casey, and Dan for lunch over at the Bleacher Club. The food was was great (not greyt though). I wasn't feeling to well afterwards though, had to pop a prev and some motrin to keep my esophagus from melting once I returned to my room. That night, Mike has stopped by, wanted to know if we could hang tonight. I said 'sure', and he came and went for the next few hours until around midnight he brought over some juice and such. Kristin stopped by, and Greg came along too. We had some interesting conversations and I was elightened by some facts-about-ninjas I had never known! (Along with a the added bonus of hearing the world's coolest song!). If you like ninjas and want to know tons about them, you should definitly go here-> http://realultimatepower.net/ Believe me, you _won't_ be disappointed, but make sure you have a sense of humour first. Well, everyone left at around 4am, when I was able to shake Kristin awake so I could sleep in my damn bed. Then, Glenn came home around a half hour later or so. He made chili and we eat, thus delaying my beauty sleep.
Saturday proved to be a pretty-much worthless day. I completed a bio paper and my stats lab though, both worthless to me anyhow. I remember waking up around 3 or 4.. I can't remember, and Kaa was on the MUD. We had a balance meeting...a hellish one; guild balancing is rough. Kreios stopped by thankfully and he and Kaa got a lot of work done whilst I continued studying. Later that night, I was itching for food.. hadn't had _anything_ to eat all day so I gave Glenn a ring and he came back home and he drove Mike and I to Kelly for some late-night snacking. I bought a sammich.. which reminds me, half of it is still sitting in the fridge (MMmmm....) so I guess I'll eat it now. Nothing fun happened today, so that's why I feel it was really worthless.
And now it's Sunday, I woke up about 2hours ago with the intent of getting some work done. I check my mud todo list but seems I have done all that already for the most part so I guess it's time to hit the books again, I have a few more psych sheets to fill out for studying.. friggin' finals are right around the corner. I just wanna hang with Bradford again, those times are always fun, especially bathroom chats.
Well, I'll be be home *cringe* in a about 11 days. I'm gonna try to do my best on these last few tests, but I know I won't. I'm a horrid test-taker and it's gonna keep me down all my life as far as education goes. I think I'm in the wrong major, I should've done Computer Science or something *sigh*. Should I switch? I mean, I love psychology, but I just don't know if I want to be doing for the rest of my life, and the pay is always gonna such big time anyway. I'd like to be a doctor (I'd get a cool license plate with some letters on it) but what does it all mean? I won't be furthering my knowledge of anything. Curse me for wanting to "cure" other people, it's not gonna happen, psychology is such a bullshit major, and it's extremely difficult here at Stony Brook. Maybe I'll look at a Comp Sci course or something for next semester, would be interesting I suppose. Anyhow, laterz.
Grey (5:54 PM)
Friday, December 06, 2002
Bleh. Just bleh. For the past two days my acid's been acting up BADLY. My esophagus has been burned like hell but the prevacid has been helping a lot. On a good note, it snowed like mad yesterday and I enjoyed it. I made sure to remind all my friends not to eat yellow snow. I guess all that snowman jazzing paid off! In light of the snow, I perform a little snow jig everytime I go outside. I love snow, it's just so awesome.
Stuff on the MUD has been going wel it seems. Kaa and I finished up death penalty balance for the most part. We got stuck on how exactly to penalize spill (skill & spell) loss upon being revive due to us not having any idea how much spills will cost to max. But, we did finish up on the exp loss and stat loss formulas and %'s. Last night we tackled guild balance. Seems tough, but Kaa's done it once so that helps. I feel It's gonna be a long night..
I guess I'll do some studying. I wish I could say "more studying" but I haven't started yet and it's 5:15 already. I'm falling behind, but I know it's because I'm under the weather. I can't wait to be done with school and see my friends again. Please note I did not say "I can't wait until I go home." Thank you. Maybe I'll post again later..
Grey (5:17 PM)
Tuesday, December 03, 2002
Today was an interesting day. I sat in front of my computer for about 9 hours of the 10 I've been awake thus far, leaving it only to roll around to other parts of the room (hooray for rolly-chair laziness!! *whee*) to grab books and other miscellaneous clutter off the ground such as pens and pencils. I did a whole lotta MUD-related work though, and it was fun. Zeta, Cirden, Dynard, Alarielle, and I were all pretty busy doing respective jobs and I felt like a lot got done today. Ya know, aside from being with my special someone, the only time I am really happy is when I am logged on Seasons (link on the left) and I feel that sense of community there. I love getting work done and I feel that I am really coming around in my abilities. I learned arrays and I understand them pretty well I think, but I haven't really had the chance to put the knowledge to the test. Anyway, it was a lot of fun.
I also got a lot of school work done. I converted 15 pages of notes onto 5 index cards packed with happy-smacky abnormal pschology goodness (please don't smack on the cahds, thanks you ~The Management). So my work in that class is pretty much done for the semester. Also, I studied a bit for my not-so-happy-smacky psych class and did my bio paper and stats HW. After all this, I decided to order some campus delivery chinese food.
While waiting for said chinese food to arrive, Andrea came online (yay!) and we chatted on cam for a bit before she had to go to sleep. It's good talking to old friends I guess, especially cool ones who can really argue a point and fuel a dull conversation into something worth talking about. Brad's like that too, Glenn, not so much. As for Eileen, there's always something to talk about with her ..heh. Well, chinese food got here and I eat and Glenn went to the gym and he's bitching about pain in his arms or something. Anyhow, nothing more to say about today, it was a decent day for sitting around and doing mostly nothing. I think I'll go bother Bradford now..
Grey (11:10 PM)
Monday, December 02, 2002
Well, after much debating (like 27 seconds worth), I've created a friggin' blog. Thank you Brad, thank you Eileen (*smooch*). Sorry Brad, you don't get a smooch. Anyhow, Glenn is sleeping and I really dunno what to write, so I guess I'll just talk about my holiday like everyone else did. Alright, I'll make the format simple so you can just jump to whichever day you friggin' feel like:
Tuesday was simply jaws. I had to wait a few hours for Eileen to come home but once she did, it was all good. I picked her up and we went back to my house. Conveniently, it started to snow and I didn't have to drive her home so we got a snuggle for a few hours. It was great! We watched Monster, Inc. and the extended version of Lotr: the fellowship of the ring. The next morning she was still there! simply stunning..
Ah yes.. wednesday, the day before thanksgiving. Well, we'll just skip to the important parts I guess. In the afternoon, I picked up Bradford and visited the stupid EZ pass center to pay some stupid bill cuz i get stuck with stupid errands on my stupid holidays. We chilled at the mall, had some lunch, window shopped a bit. We had a helluva time finding a friggin' ATM macheen that actually had money in it AND read credit cards at the same time. Anywho, that night Eileen and I went to her grandma's for din din. It was yummy and such, as usual. She came back to my place, but her mom had to pick her up at midnight. Oh well. I slept alone *sigh*.
Today it was turkey holocaust. People everywhere were cookin' turkeys. Such a sad day.. Either way, I hate turkey. That afternoon, I was invited to Brad's place for an early meal. Well, I got stuck sitting next to her so she screamed my ear off and kept whacking my shoulder. Eh, I guess it wasn't so bad after all cuz I got to play with AwesomeDog. He's so awesome. He's got an awesome tail, and an awesome grin, and an awesome food dish. I ever got to see the AwesomeSprint, which slowed down into the AwesomeTrot, then proceeding into the AwesomeWalk. Man, I tell ya, it was awesome. Later in the day, I ended up having to go home *mutter* But luckily, Glenn came over for a good meal. That was nice and stuff. I even got to leave my house and go to Glenn's to spend the night. That relieved some stress for surely.
It seemed like it'd be a good day, and it definitly was, with some exception bleeding into saturday. Anyhow, here goes nothin'. So I woke in Glenn's basement, quite warm actually, I was glad about that. It was roughly noon. I head out to Eileen's. The plan was to see a movie at 1:50. Well, her mom, Eileen, Melissa, and I got into mah car and drove to New City's Clearview Cinemas. They were sold out, what do you expect the day after turkey day though right? Anyhow, her mom treated us to chinese food, that was jaws and Eileen got a make herself seem strange in the eyes of her very ditzy mother. That night, we went to Glenn's house. Mishelee even joined us and we didn't get mad at eachother.. also, simply stunning. We sat and had a nice big meal. Brad, acting as the Butter Nazi, veto'd nearly ever vote to pass the butter. Either way, we all got buttah on our biscuits and it was a buttery good time. I was a bunneh for that meal. Afterwards, we all headed downstairs and played some GGX. Brad wiped us all mostly and I got to whack Mishelee with a pillow right in the face. That was probably one of the highlights of my day. Next, the inevitable ride back home. I took Eileen with me and Glenn was following behind. We watched Snatch. Damn funny movie, i recommened it. Then, I drove Eileen back home.
SATURDAY (between 12:02am and 6:28am)
This day requires a time line, Kubrick's The Killing style, so here it is:
12:02am: drove Eileen home. (this is friday night from above)
2:52 am: arrive back home, see Glenn's alcohol sitting on kitchen counter. snatch it up in bag, place in room.
3:12am: visit mother's room. she is upset, playing wounded soul, feeling like bad mother for wrong reasons.
3:50am: IM'd eileen, told her story.
3:53am: called Glenn, told him story.
4:03am: ended conversation with Glennard.
4:07am: worried about parental repercussion, anticipating talk on underage drinking and similar jazz.
4:22am: called Glenn-dog back, chatted.
4:48am: ended conversation with Glenn-san.
5:37am: lie awake in bed deciding whether to pack things (Eileen included, batteries not) and head for border (Not Taco Hell)
6:13am: stare at clock, hearing strange sounds, attribute them to sleep deprivation induced delusions.
6:13m49s: think wall had started to change shape and is laughing at me.
6:28am: last time i remember looking at clock and hearing walls laugh before passing out.
SATURDAY (after 6:28am)
Well, I woke up remembering that I had promised Eileen to dinner that night. I decided to pack up all my things in the car and attempt to avoid seeing my mother. Well, I saw her call pull out of the driveway so i grabbed everything, sprinted for the door and drove away from the house. I arrived at Eileen at 2pm sharp. We watched some TV for awhile with AuntieJuu and Melissa. Around 5:30, we headed out to the outback, got a reservation. We were seated by about 6:02pm and we ordered as much food as we could possibly eat, and thensome (Come to think of it.. it's still in Glenn's car right now..). As we left the place, I checked my cell fone and saw the time was 7:47pm and was wondering why my mom had never called, but I thought too soon! New voice mail messages awaited me. So, I listened to em. My mom had left one 40 minutes earlier. She wanted me to come home at a decent hour for a 'talk'. I knew this would the last night with my hunneh, so I called her back and told her I'd be home around ten. Eileen and I watched the Taxi Marathon for 2h, it was funny, we laughed. AuntieJuu was there too, but she fell asleep hehe. Glenn arrive at Eileen around 9:20pm. The plan was to go home, get my talk, and get outta there as fast as possible. I would be sleeping over at his house that night so we could leave early Sunday morning. I heard the talk, and we left. I was relieved to finally be away from home again, I really can't stand living there sometimes. That night I slept well and the next morning we headed to McDonalids for a nice greasy breakfast before heading back to Stony Brook.
Well, I'm here at school. We arrived at 11am or so, and I took a 'nap' until 6pm whereafter I went out to dinner with B-Boy Danny Yan. I tutored a bit on the mud, added another random welcome screen and wrote a bit more of the wizard's handbook. Right not though, it's time for bed cuz the weekend's over.. it's friggin' Monday *sigh* I have class in less than 4hours.. damn it. Oh well. Goodnight Blog.
Grey (4:42 AM)